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September 16th, 2016 at 06:00 am

Thanks to Gramma Ray for starting this! Sorry I'm so verbose and can't keep it brief. Smile

Here is my list:
1. I am married, officially to one spouse, unofficially to another, for coming up on 10 years. Technically we're "polyamorous" though I'm not crazy about that term because it covers a huge range of different lifestyles.
2. Dating wise, I've been with my now-wife 19 years and we've been with our husband 11 years.
3. I have 2 daughters, age 6 and 4. One is mine and my husband's biologically, the other is my partner and my husband's biologically. But we each legally adopted the kid that wasn't ours biologically, so in MN they have 3 legal parents.
4. I work full time at a job I have been at over 10 years.
5. I have blogged here for 9 years.
6. I believe I have prosopagnosia (face blindness), which makes it very difficult to remember people out of context. I also have fairly severe fear of death (thanatophobia).
7. I have two FIV+ rescue cats.
8. I'm one of the biggest Simpsons fans ever. The old stuff was better, but I'm a faithful viewer still!
9. I've been a mostly-vegan for about 23 years, since my sophomore year in college. I love to cook.
10. Shortly after college in 1996 I was in a life-threatening car accident and spent 6 months in a wheelchair. I still have a surgery scar that runs down the length of my midsection.
11. I have only traveled to the US (including Puerto Rico), Mexico, Canada, England, Netherlands and recently Spain. I hope to gradually expand that list. My bucket list destinations include Italy, Greece and some more tropical places like the Caymans.
12. I was raised without a TV and have a hard time not bingeing on TV just because I can! Instead I listened to old-time radio shows on NPR growing up. I only know Gunsmoke the radio show, not the TV version! I also love old movies the best, partly from my parents and partly from film history class in college.
13. I am a huge fan of old-time country music and rock 'n' roll. My idols are Jimmie Rogers, Hank Williams Sr., Johnny Cash and Elvis. I like other types of music but this is what's at the core of me.
14. My No. 1 cause is alleviating racial inequality (economic and other) in this country. No. 2 is helping people figure out personal finance.
15. I still don't see a clear path to retirement, but I'm working on it more and more!
16. I love to throw parties -- big blowouts or small dinner parties or anything in between. I was an introvert but have become something of an omnivert over the years.
17. My mom was nearly 40 when she had me and my next-youngest sister is 10 years older than me. All my kids' 11 cousins are young adults. My brother is 20 years older than me and I feel like I barely know him.
18. I have lived in 6 houses, 4 dorms, 3 apartments and 1 condo during my life, and have owned 3 cars. I currently own a duplex and no car.
19. I've written fiction on and off in my life but never been published outside of school literary magazines. I'm a copywriter so have produced lots of marketing copy on web and in print, though not under my name.
20. I have met 1 fellow SA blogger. I hope to meet more!

10 Responses to “My list”

  1. creditcardfree Says:
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    The fear of death popped out at me...my older daughter seems to be suffering from that! Thanks for sharing.

  2. scottish girl Says:
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    I think you're well-travelled. I'll need to do my own list.

  3. Tabs Says:
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    Oooh so very interesting!

  4. ceejay74 Says:
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    CCF, it really sucks as a phobia! Most others (falling from great height, bitten by spider) you could at least reason that it might not happen to you. My phobia is of the one great certainty of life, so I've got to face it and not avoid it to try and make it less terrifying.

  5. rob62521 Says:
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    Very interesting!

  6. creditcardfree Says:
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    I have had so many talks with my daughter about it, particularly this summer. I told her on some level she needs to get to a place of acceptance despite the unknown of how that will happen. I also think it says how much you each enjoy living!! Smile

  7. ceejay74 Says:
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    It's great that you're talking to her about it. I think one reason it developed (along with other social awkwardness and intimacy hangups that I've gotten over to some extent) is my parents just didn't talk about deep or personal stuff with me. Avoidance of the topic of death can make it seem even more terrifying. At this point I'm just trying to mitigate that fear in myself as I'm not sure what I could do to cure it; I've read up and the one constant is that trying to avoid thinking about it (for someone who's scared of it) will make the phobia worse.

    Keeping in mind that things can be passed along (through both nature and nurture), I'm very open about death when my kids bring it up. And even though a certain chill goes through me at how often my older daughter references my eventual death, I temper my reaction because I want her to see how a parent SHOULD react, not how I actually WANT to react. So hopefully she can see that although I don't want to ever die, I'm accepting of the eventuality and understand why it's necessary (to make room for other people).

    ... That said, I wouldn't mind if science advances enough to keep me alive until 125 or so! And keep my mind active so I can keep working longer if needed to afford a super-long retirement! Big Grin

    My 4-year-old daughter actually cracked me up; when the doctor said she was really healthy at her checkup, she said "You mean I'll live forever?!?" Kudos to him that he let her down gently but was honest with her ("Well, no, I wouldn't say that, but ...") Big Grin

  8. FrugalTexan75 Says:
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    I don't know that I really want to live a long, long time. 90 or so would work for me, as long as I have all my cognitive function and can physically function relatively well. I most likely won't have any children, so the only possible family member alive at that time would be my brother. If I had grandkids or nephews/nieces then I might view it differently. Death doesn't scare me, but maybe part of that is due to looking forward to what I believe will happen someday - so I view death just as an extended sleep.

  9. Dido Says:
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    Interesting. I would be much more afraid to live to 125 than to die at 75. I find the prospect of death actually very comforting--there will be a time when I can stop trying so hard, when everything bad that can happen to me will have happened so nothing bad can happen any more (I do not believe in an afterlife). Not that *dying* doesn't make me anxious--I just pray to avoid intolerable pain or a long period of chronic dependency. But I am so concerned about what life on this planet will be like in another 30 years (what with climate change (which I DO believe in) etc that I find it comforting that I lost both of my parents in their 70s and this makes my prospect of having a really long lifespan less likely.

    There is a book by existential psychotherapist Irvin Yalom called "Love's Executioner" which is mostly a series of fascinating case histories but he has a brief and readable summary of the principles of existential psychology in the intro and conclusion. You might find it of interest.

  10. ceejay74 Says:
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    Thank you Dido! I'll check it out

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